MARCH SADNESS - A Symphony of Sorrow

[pumpkinhollow]

SYMPHONY OF SORROW

If the Audience Would Please Take Their Seats

You find yourself at the theatre.

You may be asking how you got here, why you are here, when did you arrive. But none of that matters, does it? Nothing matters. Whether you are shocked at yourself for thinking so or whether you have known that nothing matters for years on end does not matter either. Whatever meaning there was to be had in any of this escapes you now. Who you were and what you wanted, what you valued and stood for, it all seems now like such a hazy dream. Out of reach.

There is a ticket in your hand. It tells you where to go. You follow it dutifully. Ticket stubs are exchanged for playbills. A schedule of performances. Whatever. You numbly proceed to where you belong. Performers and stage crew to their places, orchestra to the pit, workers to their positions. All with the knowledge that there can be only pain.

A four-armed conductor in moth-eaten robes raises his baton, and there is music.

You deserve this.

You deserve this.

You deserve this.

Observer’s Overture

First Movement in E Minor

adagio, con dolore
PP

Lights down on the chorus, who sits in the stands. They are playing the role of the audience. Ad lib spoken word between chorus members seated near one another. Soft music begins to swell eerily.

Lights up on the stage. A performance begins, apparently in media res, where the chorus is meant to observe.

vacillante, improvvisato
cresc. P

The performers on stage play out their acts, appearing fearful. The chorus ad libs quiet uncertainty from the stands. Some of them will look down at their playbill and find their own name on the schedule of acts to come. There is a brief description on the page of the act that is scheduled for them. It is clear by the state of the ones already on stage that this isn’t something they have a choice in.

Chorus members attempt to rise from their seats, but cannot. Not yet. Foreshadowing to a later movement. For now, they must endure the overture.

Opera Infernale

Second Movement in Various Keys
( A medley of vignettes, performed in various styles)

chorale concerto a tutti, con affetto

F

Various chorus members rise between songs and make their way to the green room, where they are costumed. They have some time to talk with other incoming acts. They will find themselves and their loved ones being prepared for their acts.

segue

Those who performed before stop in the green room again. They look drained. A fate which awaits the incoming acts.

segue

On the stage, each act is a musical recreation of trauma. A worst fear, a most painful moment, an act of cruelty, a time of hardship. The styles will vary accordingly. If the other players in a given tale are present, they will receive their role without question. If a cast member has no fellow performers from their own world present, an understudy will be chosen to play any other roles from those that they are close to. Everyone is off book. Vocal quality is adjusted to match the conductor’s standards. Staff ensures there are no interruptions. The show must go on.

CODA: Für Nimona
A Coda in A Minor

There is a stranger in the green room, unmoving. Pale glowing eyes peer out from an ungulate-shaped void perched atop a high end suit. Antlers leer overhead. He is waiting for someone. Staff take no notice of him.

Ensemble's Lament

Third Movement in G Minor

bocca chiusa
PPP

There are other places to be besides the stage. Other roles to play.

pesante

Behind the stage, the stage crew toil under Baritone, the stage manager and the Viscount of Suffering. There is a pipe organ built into the man’s chest, and the bell of a horn where his heart ought to be. It shows. He is as cruel as he is miserable. He runs a tight ship.

declamando, letando

There are others in the pit, if they have the musical skill for it. And while this part of the performance is managed by a kinder sort, the Contessa of False Comforts is not so named for no reason.

The opera is long. There are no intermissions. The orchestra plays until their lungs ache and their fingers bleed, while Sonata assures them that it will all be over soon. Surely she cannot be lying. Surely there must be an end…

freddo, pietoso

Just outside the auditorium, there is work for the chorus serving food and drinks, taking ticket stubs for the endless stream of audience members, cleaning messes, or all other manner of soulless work. Perhaps these ensemble members simply did not interest the Conductor. Or it could be that they were made more miserable elsewhere.

Reprise - Observer’s Overture

Fourth Movement in E Major

impetuoso
FF It would seem that once a chorus member’s concerto is complete, they are free to move about the premises. At least until they are scheduled in a supporting role for another soloist. This means a chance to explore--- or escape.

presto repente, bellicoso
cresc.

Those attempting to escape will be met with resistance, however. Guarding the doors are shades, creations of the Conductor who can wear the faces of those held dear by those that look upon them. Escape, more likely, will come from within.

Members of the chorus who attempt to do battle with the Conductor, however, will find themselves up against something far more dangerous. Figures of glass, in all different shapes. Some abstract and solid, some hollow and human-like, and everywhere in between. Perhaps some chorus members will find one to be familiar.

The Hero will need an ensemble of her own to make it through and strike at the Conductor. Perhaps a resistance can be formed in a hidden location near the green room.

Homeward Aria

Fifth and Final Movement in C Major

tiempo di fanfara, vittorioso
F

When a dagger of Aster is driven into the heart of Prince Efrain of Sorrow’s Song, at last, the illusion fades. The members of the chorus relinquish their roles and find themselves on the summit of Crane’s Ridge.

It will be an arduous journey home, but it can be done with the solace that there is one less Demon Prince to trouble Pumpkin Hollow. Music in a joyful major key swells, then decrescendos.

enfatico, mancando poco a poco

| CONTENT WARNINGS: altered states of consciousness, entrapment, grief, depression, mood control, loss of bodily autonomy |

Comments

[liesdontfindyou]

One step at a time, that's all CT has ever been able to rely on. One stage of investigation after the next, layer after layer of encryption, slowly escalating but necessary risks, a long string of bases when on the run... she had to learn patience or go nuts and, well, she's not entirely certain she didn't go nuts but the patience has stuck.

So she walks, focused on the next step: getting out of this damn hallway into a populated area of the theatre and wait out the rest of the event.

She damn near jumps out of her skin at the sudden, crashing impact, pivoting on her heel on pure, panicked instinct that something's happened—

And watches Carolina's fist withdraw from the wall and her walk on. Jesus fucking christ.

She blinks. Gestures. "And if that wall had led to some other cursed room full of demonic shit? Or, hell, if that wall had been the demonic shit?"

[cyansoldier]

Dust plumes in a cloud where her fist retreats from its newly-made burrow. Drywall falls away in pieces. Were she alone, she might have eviscerated it. Punch punch punch— lines of holes made like bullets through a practice dummy. Her knuckles beaten red and raw and satisfying, calloused skin cracked like a lizard's shed gone wrong, knee drawn up to blow through the half-decimation, body a weapon, a two-legged destruction, punch punch kick—

She's being ridiculous.

She's acting like South. Thinking like South.

Carolina exhales sharply. Smooths back strands of loose red hair and attempts to comport herself.

"We'd be fine."

Pause. She looks to the wall, waiting for it to send demon arms out through the hole to strangle her.

Nothing. She gestures.

"See? Fine. We can handle it."

Walk on. We're fine. You're fine. She's fine.

[liesdontfindyou]

CT just stares at her for a moment, head tilted, silent and studying, until there's a quiet huff and a shake. "Don't take lessons from South. It never did her any good either, you know. I think it made her feel worse."

Anger as a filter emotion. Every other negative feeling twisted into a form that felt easier to digest in the moment, but that left bruises on the psyche where it had been forced to fit.

...they really were friends, once. It's weird to think that she's deader than either of the two of them that stand here, now.

CT sighs and turns to walk on. "Come on. It can't be far now."

[cyansoldier]

Does she feel worse?

Has blowing her way through drywall or sandbag-dummies or holo-targets ever made her feel better?

Carolina wrangles herself inward, sitting introspective mind down like a parent strong-holding their child into completing homework. And the child, insisting they know everything; that they'd be wasting time by putting pencil to paper, obliging useless questions with useless answers—

So why am I sitting through this elementary classroom bullshit—

Connie's right.

She follows silently, shaking drywall dust from her fist.

Harmonic droning from the stage grows louder.

[liesdontfindyou]

A dull sense of dread hangs over CT heavier and heavier the closer they get to their target, but for now she dismisses it as a simple consequence of being stuck in this place at all. It's meant to make you feel terrible. Now that the lingering effects of their performance have mostly faded, she's just picking up the ambient atmosphere, that's all.

(She doesn't really believe it, even as she thinks it.)

Down the hall, another turning, another door. The bustling sound of endless patrons and those serving them, trapped in their roles just as much as anyone on stage. CT presses her back to the wall and peers around the corner into the lobby, looking for the door to the auditorium.

"Well. You were right about attendants."

[cyansoldier]

Carolina shoulders up against the wall, trying her hardest to ignore a Commanding Officer's muscle memory. 'Sync' ready to fall from her lips at any given moment. Hand falling to her waist in search of a firearm and finding nothing. And Connecticut, the only thing she recognizes in this awful place.

"Pretty crappy job if you ask me."

Hawk eyes scan the lobby perimeter; bodies that move to will apart from their own, shoveling food into buckets and doling out drinks. They look uniquely, expressionlessly miserable.

"Think they'd point us in the right direction?"

[liesdontfindyou]

"I don't think they could do much but serve us popcorn."

Another scan of the room. What would be the doors are blocked by shades that CT refuses to let her eyes linger upon for too long once their faces twist into something familiar. The attendants at their sales positions, fulfilling endless orders for endless patrons. And beyond the throng, the entrances that should lead to the auditorium.

"We just have to make it through. I think."

[cyansoldier]

"Wouldn't be the worst thing in the world."

Popcorn and shades— what more could she ask for? A large cup of eldritch horror Coke, maybe. And a one way ticket out of here. Screw the big finale.

By the looks of these things, though— mindless drones to a demon's fanfare, with a duty to ensure that each performance be uninterrupted— she's certain they'll be a real pain in the side. A nuisance at best, and a danger at worst. Assume everyone's an enemy. It's gotten her this far.

Carolina makes a tight, thoughtful noise as she surveys her path. Cracks neck and knuckles.

"Simple."

And like that, she's off.

[liesdontfindyou]

CT huffs something of an empty laugh. Same old Carolina.

Where Carolina is fast and direct, CT slips out of her hiding place and sticks to the edges. Either Carolina will succeed in her own approach, or she'll be a distraction, and CT can take advantage of either to keep the false crowd's eyes off her as she makes her way around the walls of the space toward the auditorium doors.

Or, she should've been able to. If something didn't suddenly root her to the spot.

[cyansoldier]

Carolina speeds into the crush.

There are bodies on all sides of her. Operatives in little vests and bowties sweeping popcorn from the floor, patrons brought up from darkness solely to get in her way. That's fine. Nothing she isn't used to. Keep an eye on Connecticut, a stern voice in her head. She won't drop the ball this time.

Gaze cast out into a raucous sea, she spots her sneaking. Just her style.

Focus. Lead them away. Create an opening.

She blows hair out of her face. Turns shoulder into battering-ram and clears a path only to be met by greater resistance. One shade twists gaseous limbs around her bicep, face yawning expressionlessly— mouth a black hole, a nightmare— right beside her's. It reeks of death and cold. Another reaches for a broom. You've got to be kidding me.

"CT, we've got— CT?"

She isn't moving.

Why the hell isn't she moving?

"Hey!— what's your problem?"

[liesdontfindyou]

She hears Carolina, of course she hears her, but CT's head doesn't turn and her feet remain glued to the spot. The first sign of motion is her spine straightening as if pulled upright by unseen thread, and then she simply turns and walks.

Through the crowd, the demonic patrons letting her through without fuss nor fanfare. Her feet carry her forward with no say so from her, every step a new wave of dread through her nerves.

[cyansoldier]

Now you've really got to be kidding.

CT marches in full-attention, a perfect soldier of Efrain's assembly to be engulfed backstage. There's no snapping the cords that pull her, Carolina knows this, but that doesn't mean she can't try. Everything is fallible. If she moves quickly, works hard enough, then maybe, maybe—

She tears her arm free from one shade's grasp, and with the motion severs its limb clean from the body. Its jaw gapes in a silent, agonized groan. Her arm burns where it touches her.

Pivoting, she turns and sees—

A broom handle coming straight for her face.

They're resourceful, that's for sure.

Crack!— wood to forehead. It snaps in two. Carolina growls, properly infuriated and lunges for a piece. Tries, tries to see past the stars in her eyes, enough to stab splintered wood through the thing's jugular. Again in the face— if you can call it that.

It drops like heavy cloth, then begins to reconstitute itself.

She rushes Connecticut and tries to block her path.

"You don't have to do this."

[liesdontfindyou]

You think I want to?! scream her eyes, in place of a mouth that can't do more than grit its teeth in futile defiance. She doesn't want to go back there, to climb up onto the stage and tell some new horrible story.

But she doesn't get a choice. Her legs are moving without her say so, trying to sidestep Carolina's efforts to block her, over and over again until she instead suddenly shoves past her with force beyond her control.

[cyansoldier]

Shit—

Hands goaded on by unfounded strength shove Carolina clean out of the way. She hits the ground. The air flees her lungs and she's upright in the next beat (her and the ground are strangers to each other, and she'd like to keep it this way), trailing CT's path until an in presents itself.

The door.

If she could barricade the door—

Use her size to her advantage—

Cut the signal somehow.

There has to be a way through.

This utter lack of willpower doesn't suit Connecticut. She's always acted on her own indeterminable plans, avoiding the beaten path in favor of lesser traveled hallways and empty classrooms. Never afraid to bite back at the highest degree of order. What choices she's made are, Carolina assumes, the product of intense self-deliberation. Walls built. Doors locked. Secrets well kept, until they weren't.

Like a stone pillar she roots herself in front of the door, barring access to backstage.

"Come on—"

Thin hope.

[liesdontfindyou]

CT stalls, in front of her. Maybe that makes that thin hope grow, maybe it seems like it means something. Maybe.

Only for two of the demonic patrons to grab Carolina, instead, yanking her out of the way and letting CT walk on. Whether she wants to or not.

About wrap?

[cyansoldier]

Bared teeth do little to scare off demons, she discovers. They take no heed of her size, her shape— broad and muscled and train to kill. They don't care. They are mindless, therefore fearless. She won't plead with them. She refuses.

"Get off—" shoulder wrenches nowhere. Legs kick. "Get off, damnit!"

But she can't—

Can't move, can't fight.

"CT—"

The black obelisk entryway consumes her. Connecticut disappears into the backstage.

And she's moving. Away. They drag Carolina by either arm through the auditorium doors kicking and howling and no one, no one, breaks their gaze to look at her. They seat her. She can't move. Can't turn her head, eyes fixed on whatever nightmare takes stage.

wrap!

[liesdontfindyou]

And CT just walks, walks, walks, until she's stood once again in the Green Room, ready to be stripped down and costumed anew.

She doesn't want to do this.

She has no choice.