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daemoniumexmachina ([personal profile] daemoniumexmachina) wrote in [community profile] ph_logs2024-03-24 05:28 pm

March Sadness

Who: Efrain, the Prince of Sorrow's Song, and you!
What: Sadboy open mic night
When: March 24th
Where: Empty Pockets
Warning(s): I'm not sure how to describe it other than it's a huge bummer.



-Lover, come to the kitchen floor; the tiles are cold and so am I-

In late March, posters begin cropping up around town and on the bulletin board. They are beautifully made, on gray paper with swooping white letters, advertising a "Sing Your Heart Out" event at the Empty Pockets Performance Bar.

The bar in question, seated in a cozy location in Downtown Hollow, is well known for hosting musical, theatrical, and poetic talent of all sorts on its stage. Many of them are planned, but "open stage nights" are fairly common as well. So when the posters begin appearing, advertising an opportunity for residents to come and showcase or simply enjoy emotionally vulnerable music and poetry as a community bonding exercise, it comes as no particular surprise. The staff aren't sure who planned it, nor were they informed it would be occurring, but hey. It's an opportunity for them to sell more drinks. They don't intend to look a gift horse in the mouth.

And so it is that on the evening of March 24th, performing arts lovers of Pumpkin Hollow come to Empty Pockets to move or be moved by songs and sonnets that tug upon the heartstrings. It's a quirky event, and strange that it'd be so popular. Were this many people looking for an emotional outlet by happenstance? Or did those with sorrow in their hearts feel called by some unheard song?

Empty Pockets is a dimly lit space, intimate and close. A carved wooden bar, polished with care, features a winding piece of wall art, little marble tiles in black and white, cut to look like piano keys, sprawling in a flowing trail along the well-stocked backbar. Cormac Bowen, of Cormac and the Banshees, can be seen chatting excitedly before his act, banjo strapped to his back as he downs a pint and jokes with anyone he talks to. Before too long, he and the aforementioned "banshees" ascend the stage, happy to be the opening act as they play some of their more emotionally stirring pieces.

Get comfortable. Grab a drink. Enjoy the scene. It won't be peaceful for long.


-I can feel your sorrow pouring out of your skin; and I don't want to be alone-

Not long after Cormac and the Banshees excuse themselves from the stage, the bar becomes... strangely quieter. As if a shroud of grey has fallen over the crowd, hushing it by just a few decibels.

A band of strange people file onto the stage, hardly noticed by the crowd despite their unusual appearances. A starkly pale woman wearing a blindfold, dressed all in lace and gossamer finery and wearing a halo-like crown over her veil. A grey-skinned man whose mouth and chest are fitted with shiny brass piping, which looks terribly painful. And lastly, a shrouded figure with four arms, carrying a massive stringed instrument decorated with skulls. The group does not introduce themselves, or even announce the start of their act, they simply begin to play.

First, the man with the heart of brass begins to sing a low note, which presses air through all the pipes to sound like a harmonization between a hurdy gurdy, an organ, and a tuba. The shrouded figure takes a bow to his strange instrument, which creates a unique and eerie sound that blends the deep, rich tones of a bass with the sliding, mysterious notes of a dilruba or sitar. And at last, the woman begins to sing, her haunting voice climbing and descending through numerous octaves with unrivalled skill, her Latin lyrics telling a tale that cannot be understood, but felt.

It is the most beautiful music you have ever heard. You are immediately filled with the urge to weep, your heart breaking for a memory you can't quite reach, a life you never lived, a moment you forgot, a loved one whose face you can no longer picture. The pain overwhelms you. The desire to wrench your heart from your chest simply to get it to stop aching, because the pain of its severance would be tame compared to the emotional torment you suffer, becomes very real in your mind. And then the song ends, and more painful than the sound of the song is its loss.

You must find a way to release it.


-So take from me, what you want, what you need-

Efrain and his band vacate the stage, leaving it opened. It calls to you, even if it hadn't before, though you very well may have come here with a song in mind. However, now releasing your pain into the room feels imperative, like there's something rotting you from the inside if you don't. Or you can simply opt to turn to the person next to you and spill your pain to the nearest person. The idea of leaving simply... doesn't occur to you. As if this is all that matters.

Efrain himself sits in the corner. He reaches out a hand to you. "You poor, miserable soul," he croons, his voice soft and breathy but somehow still crisp and clear. He beckons you near. "Come to me. Sing your song of pain. And I will give you what you need."
tehilim127_1: (pensive)

[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-03 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't know. It's ... the situation's complicated." For a moment, her teeth worry at her lower lip.

"I'm not a priest either, but I stand in a particular relationship to my own god, and it's ... exclusive in nature. All respect to your goddesses, and to you who serve them, but there are ... for lack of a better term, restrictions. On my behavior, with regard to them. And right now I can't --"

The flaw in her own voice is a jarring shock to her, and she cuts off.
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Action - Talking)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-03 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
"I understand, Zivia. I do understand. I'm not making any demands of you to worship. I'd invite you home with me instead, to offer a cup of tea, but that has a whole different set of implications I'm not looking to make right now. Or...we could walk down to the Oak and Iron. I just want somewhere that's safe and familiar and good for talking."

He shakes his head, as serious as he's been this whole while.

"Your god, your relationship with him, it's nothing I want to step on. But if there's anything I can offer, to aid you with what rites and observances you need to make, I want to be there to help you in that way. If it's permissible for someone employed by the Temple to help?"
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[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-03 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
As he speaks, she's able to wrest control of herself back from the second source of pain that ambushed her so thoroughly. It helps that he's talking so seriously, so kindly.

"Thank you," she says, when he falls silent. "Really, thank you. Even the offer means a great deal. For some things it would be a problem, but for others I'd greatly appreciate whatever help you can give."

And with a small smile: "The Oak and Iron, then? They do have a very nice selection of tea."
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Happy - Hopeful)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-03 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
"That they do. Will you be offended if I want to fortify myself with something a little stiffer?"

Man needs a beer after all this excitement. And maybe something to eat.
tehilim127_1: (Default)

[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-03 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
"Not even a little," she says, very solemnly. "I might join you in that -- my god may restrict a lot of things, but thankfully alcohol isn't one of them."

A pause. "Except for wine, there are rules around wine."
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Neutral - Pointed Look)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-03 04:54 am (UTC)(link)
"Do the same rules apply to cordials and things like dandelion wine? We have an abundance of those on the island, not quite as many grapes. But for the moment...beer." He gestures and begins walking in the appropriate direction, to the familiar second temple of the town, the Oak and Iron.
tehilim127_1: (Default)

[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-04 02:00 am (UTC)(link)
"Just wine." She falls into step beside him. "If there isn't much in the way of wine, that's certainly easier ... Do people grow grapes here? I'm realizing I have no idea what conditions you need for that."
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Default)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-04 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
"More typically, they're imported to the Emerald Isles--probably still are, to the rest of them. Only Marrow's cut off, as far as we all know."

The situation here involves a fuckton of unknowns, though.
tehilim127_1: (hmmm)

[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-04 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"So no imports," she muses. "How long's that been going on, again?"
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Sad - Wistful)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-05 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
"Five--no, six years now. Six years, since the barrier went up. Things were bad before that, mind. People dying, disappearing. Demons running amok. Curses of all kinds."

He brushes a hand over his beard, to have something to fiddle with nervously.
tehilim127_1: (hmmm)

[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-05 04:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"Hence bringing in people to help." They're approaching the door of the Oak and Iron by now, and she finds herself automatically looking to make sure they won't be overheard -- a precaution left over from a place where it was needed, like looking for traffic lights.

"I hope we can. I truly do."
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Default)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-05 07:22 pm (UTC)(link)
"I have faith you can. I don't think the goddesses would have brought you if they didn't think you can. Even if you're not allowed to worship them, do trust that they believe in you, Zivia. In all of us."

Even the locals. Now he knows that.
tehilim127_1: (Default)

[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-05 07:35 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well." She gives him the ghost of a grin, as they step inside. "They're allowed."

And as they find a table she adds "No, but in all seriousness --" pulling back one of the chairs and settling into it -- "this isn't the first time I've had to thread that particular needle. Acknowledging that they exist, that they act in the world, that isn't a problem. Belief isn't a problem, not the way I see it. And, all right, plenty of people wouldn't agree with me, but that's true about pretty much anything you could name in my religion, we've got a long history and all of it is internal arguments."
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Happy - Amused)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-05 07:41 pm (UTC)(link)
"I'm curious to learn more about it, in time. Oh, I'm not going to throw too many questions at you tonight, you get to settle in first. But I'm interested in learning more. Both to ensure you're comfortable, and for learning's sake."

He takes the seat across from her, his smile small but sincere.
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[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-05 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
"For learning's sake," she says warmly. "I'll drink to that."
preacher_in_reticence: playby: Waleed Zuaiter (Happy - Hopeful)

[personal profile] preacher_in_reticence 2024-04-06 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
"Two beers, then? And perhaps some bread and butter. Nothing heavy, we're talking heavy enough things as is."

But the tavern has an amazing sourdough bread to offer.
tehilim127_1: (Default)

[personal profile] tehilim127_1 2024-04-07 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
"That'll work," she says cheerfully.

The bread is indeed amazing, the beer cold and just the right balance of rich and bitter, and ... the conversation mostly grows lighter after that, as though by mutual agreement that they've already got enough to carry. It's comfortable, to sit here in the warm and talk about nothing in particular, and let the grief recede little by little.

But before they part ways that night, Zivia says: If you ever want to talk about it, some other time when there's no demon around ... I could be here for that. If that's something you would want.