He pauses, pondering. Is anything waiting for him? Will anyone be happy to see him? The people who still love him are dead. If he tries to approach Cloud, he can't imagine it will be a happy meeting. He doubts Cloud could ever forgive him. Back home, he would most likely have to live in solitude, staying away from everyone he hurt so they can try to heal. He still wants to go home, and yet ... he's honestly not sure why. Does he have some foolish hope of being able to do good there, to try to do something to pay for all the evil he had wrought? He knows nothing can ever make it better.
Perhaps he only longs for home because he would be closer to where Zack and Angeal are, even though he would be alive and they would still be dead.
"I don't know," he has to admit. "Perhaps in time the longing will fade and I will prefer to stay here."
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He pauses, pondering. Is anything waiting for him? Will anyone be happy to see him? The people who still love him are dead. If he tries to approach Cloud, he can't imagine it will be a happy meeting. He doubts Cloud could ever forgive him. Back home, he would most likely have to live in solitude, staying away from everyone he hurt so they can try to heal. He still wants to go home, and yet ... he's honestly not sure why. Does he have some foolish hope of being able to do good there, to try to do something to pay for all the evil he had wrought? He knows nothing can ever make it better.
Perhaps he only longs for home because he would be closer to where Zack and Angeal are, even though he would be alive and they would still be dead.
"I don't know," he has to admit. "Perhaps in time the longing will fade and I will prefer to stay here."