"...Oh god." For someone who tries as hard as he can to compartmentalize and forget distressing things, Shen Qingqiu feels oddly distressed by the prospect of forgetting this. The idea of being stuck in a loop, repeating the same things over and over, with no idea, is horrifying to him on some fundamental level. "But this is the first time we've had this conversation, right? I'm not forgetting yet?"